{"id":1068,"date":"2019-02-04T21:21:14","date_gmt":"2019-02-04T19:21:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/?p=1068"},"modified":"2019-02-04T21:23:42","modified_gmt":"2019-02-04T19:23:42","slug":"sadece-gercek-olan-kalacak-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/?p=1068","title":{"rendered":"Sadece Ger\u00e7ek Olan Kalacak…."},"content":{"rendered":"

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Her kim d\u00fcnyan\u0131n gizemini bildi\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsa, yalan s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordur….<\/span><\/p>\n

Neden burada oldu\u011fumuzu, bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n neden ve nas\u0131l yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, nerden geldi\u011fimizi, nereye gidece\u011fimizi, t\u00fcm bu geli\u015flerin ve gidi\u015flerin nas\u0131l oldu\u011funu, aralar\u0131n\u0131n ve i\u00e7inin ne ile, nas\u0131l doldu\u011funu…<\/p>\n

Nerede ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 evrenin, sonunun nerede bitti\u011fini…<\/span><\/p>\n

Dokusunun ne ile doldu\u011fundan \u00e7ok, dokusunun ne ile, ne zaman olu\u015ftu\u011funu… Neden olu\u015ftu\u011funu…<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>Her kim bu muhte\u015fem bedenin s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsa, yalan s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordur….<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>Bug\u00fcn \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc zannetti\u011fiyle, yar\u0131n y\u00fczle\u015fecektir, ya da o kadar emindir ki bildi\u011finde, sorgulamay\u0131 kesip, zihninin ve \u2018 biliyorum\u2019 diyen yan\u0131n\u0131n esiri olacakt\u0131r yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hapishanede… Kendi esaretinde, kendi ihti\u015fam\u0131na inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 ger\u00e7ekli\u011finde kaybolacakt\u0131r…<\/p>\n

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\u00a0<\/span>Kalbin pusulas\u0131 her birimizde bir \u015feyleri, bir yerleri, bir insan\u0131, bir soruyu, o sorunun kar\u015f\u0131 koyulamaz cevab\u0131n\u0131n yolculu\u011funu g\u00f6sterirken; kalp hi\u00e7 durmadan huzurun, mutlulu\u011fun , b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn, keyfin, zenginli\u011fin, a\u015fk\u0131n, \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ritmini bedene yayarken, zihin o hapishanenin duvarlar\u0131n\u0131 daha da belirginle\u015ftirirken her ad\u0131m\u0131nda sukutun, bazen \u00a0<\/span>ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemeden durur\u00a0 <\/span>\u00f6z\u00fcn ger\u00e7e\u011fi, toplumun hayal dedi\u011fi ile, zihnin do\u011fru dediklerinin aras\u0131nda… S\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131r…<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7imizdeki Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n nefesi, bedenin her h\u00fccresinden \u0131\u015f\u0131ldayarak d\u0131\u015far\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fclmek, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcnyada iki aya\u011f\u0131yla y\u00fcr\u00fctmek isterken, bedendeki h\u00fccrelerin haf\u0131zas\u0131, zihindeki inan\u00e7lar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131, ufac\u0131k bir bedene, kocaman bir d\u00fcnyay\u0131, ihti\u015faml\u0131 bir Tanr\u0131y\u0131- Tanr\u0131\u00e7ay\u0131 hapseder durur…<\/p>\n

Kimimiz korkular\u0131yla, kimimiz ac\u0131lar\u0131yla, kimimiz d\u00fcnyasal zevklerin kontrols\u00fcz \u015f\u0131martmas\u0131nda, bir g\u00fcn\u00fc daha bitirir hayatta… Ufak bir oh sesiyle ge\u00e7er g\u00fcn; \u2018\u2019Oh…… Bug\u00fcn de korkular\u0131m\u0131 sard\u0131m , sarmalad\u0131m… Bug\u00fcn de an\u0131n i\u00e7indeki zevklere adan\u0131p, y\u00fczy\u0131llar\u0131n i\u00e7indeki keyfim i\u00e7in ya\u015famay\u0131 unuttum, bug\u00fcn de korkular\u0131m\u0131 onurland\u0131rd\u0131m, kalbimin yapmam\u0131 istedi\u011fi her \u015feyi bir kenara at\u0131p saatleri yuvarlad\u0131m… Bug\u00fcn de durdu\u011fum yerde durmay\u0131 ba\u015fard\u0131m… Bug\u00fcn de, kalbimin sesini bast\u0131r\u0131p, yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve hayatta kalmay\u0131 ba\u015fard\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u00fcnyama uygun davrand\u0131m… Bug\u00fcn de, i\u015fimi, e\u015fimi, evimi, arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131, bedenimi sorgulamadan ,hayat\u0131m\u0131 ve varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 , nefesimi ve ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden g\u00fcn\u00fc bitirebildim… Aferin bana…<\/p>\n

G\u00fcvenli\u011fin s\u0131cac\u0131k havuzunda, yapabilece\u011fimin en fazlas\u0131, ya\u015fayabilece\u011fimin en fazlas\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnebilece\u011fimin en fazlas\u0131, olabilece\u011fimin en fazlas\u0131 ….Bug\u00fcn de… \u2018\u2019<\/p>\n

Ama… Arada s\u0131rada, bazen yast\u0131\u011fa ula\u015f\u0131nca , bazen sevilenin g\u00f6zleriyle bulu\u015funca, bazen bir yatakta doktor eli uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda…Ne zaman ve nas\u0131l duyulur olursa, kendini duyulur yapar kalp, vizyonlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, ger\u00e7e\u011fi hissedilir yapar…. \u2018\u2019 senin olan seni bekliyor, sab\u0131rla, burada…\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n

Kulaklara ne kadar tampon t\u0131kansa da, kalbin konu\u015fan yan\u0131 her ne kadar bandaj bandaj sussun art\u0131k, konu\u015fmas\u0131n diye kapansa da… O hep bir yolunu bulur en ger\u00e7e\u011fe yakla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlarda…<\/p>\n

O hep ayn\u0131 \u015feyi, farkl\u0131 hayallerle, farkl\u0131 ger\u00e7ekliklerin farkl\u0131 a\u011f\u0131nda, farkl\u0131 renklerin farkl\u0131 \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131nda s\u00f6yler asl\u0131nda:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span>Kendini sevmekten ne zaman vazge\u00e7tin,<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span>D\u00fcnyada olman\u0131n heyecan\u0131n\u0131 ne zaman kaybettin,<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span>Kendini yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131n yalanc\u0131 mutluluklar\u0131nla nas\u0131l oldu da beslendi\u011fine inand\u0131n,<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span>G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn her g\u00f6zdeki beni, nas\u0131l oldu da g\u00f6rmemeyi becerdin,<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span>Sevmeyi ne zaman ac\u0131yla \u00f6zde\u015ftirdin,<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span>Sihri ya\u015fam\u0131n i\u00e7indeki ne zaman ve nas\u0131l g\u00f6rmeyi kestin,<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span>Her \u015fey oldu\u011funu bileni hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey oldu\u011funa nas\u0131l inand\u0131rd\u0131n,<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span>Ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n kocaman evreni ve evrene ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131n kocaman sevgini, nas\u0131l oldu da asla ger\u00e7ek olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n korkular\u0131nla \u00f6rt\u00fcledin?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2018 Ne zaman? \u2019 der kalp \u00e7ok\u00e7a… Zamana inand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan de\u011fil, zaman\u0131n kendini yenileyen, tekrarlayan, sonsuzlu\u011fun i\u00e7indeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir alg\u0131 kaymas\u0131 oldu\u011funu bilmedi\u011finden de\u011fil…<\/p>\n

An\u2019a sayg\u0131s\u0131ndan, yitip giden her anda olas\u0131 t\u00fcm ger\u00e7ekliklerin tekrar tekrar yap\u0131land\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, bunun i\u00e7in t\u00fcm evrenin t\u00fcm g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, yarat\u0131lan her ger\u00e7e\u011fin, yarat\u0131lmayan her dokunun yalan\u0131n\u0131 beslemeye sevgiyle devam etmesinden… Sab\u0131rla, sevgiyle, inan\u00e7la, umutla, t\u00fcm varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla , asla vazge\u00e7meden… Sorar…<\/p>\n

Bir sperm ve yumurtan\u0131n , bir insan\u0131n bedeninin i\u00e7inde , kendi kendine olu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n, bir tohumdan lezzetli meyvelere, huzurlu g\u00f6lgelere d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n, milyonlarca y\u0131l\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n, her t\u00fcrl\u00fc bilgiyi ve bilgeli\u011fi ta\u015f\u0131yan ya\u011fmurun ve kar\u0131n, her biri birbirinden farkl\u0131 \u00f6zg\u00fcrce ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan hayvanlar\u0131n , t\u00fcm dokuyu olu\u015fturan topra\u011f\u0131n, suyun, insan zihninde s\u0131radanla\u015fan mucizelerin yata\u011f\u0131nda , mucizelerin \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, mucizelerin solu\u011funda.. Her g\u00fcn sorar, sonra yine, sonra yine…<\/p>\n

Ya\u015fam\u0131n kendini olu\u015fturaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirken, sadece ger\u00e7ek olan\u0131n ger\u00e7e\u011fe eme\u011fiyle hayat\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcne yolculu\u011funu destekler….<\/p>\n

Kanatlar\u0131m var ruhumda diyeni, bedeninde o hislerle dansa \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 her nefesle… Hayat\u0131n tam i\u00e7ine… Zihnin, bedenin, duygular\u0131n tam merkezinde…<\/p>\n

Yepyeni bir d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6\u00e7 ba\u015flad\u0131 kabilelerce…<\/p>\n

Pasaport diye gizlerdeki \u0131\u015f\u0131k, vize diye kalpteki hafiflik, valiz diye hayal dedi\u011fimizin ger\u00e7eklik tozunu yan\u0131m\u0131za al\u0131rsak yeni d\u00fcnya kabulde…<\/span><\/p>\n

Sevgimle,<\/p>\n

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Banu<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Her kim d\u00fcnyan\u0131n gizemini bildi\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsa, yalan s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordur…. Neden burada oldu\u011fumuzu, bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n neden ve nas\u0131l yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, nerden geldi\u011fimizi, nereye gidece\u011fimizi, t\u00fcm bu geli\u015flerin ve gidi\u015flerin nas\u0131l oldu\u011funu, aralar\u0131n\u0131n ve […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"_EventAllDay":false,"_EventTimezone":"","_EventStartDate":"","_EventEndDate":"","_EventStartDateUTC":"","_EventEndDateUTC":"","_EventShowMap":false,"_EventShowMapLink":false,"_EventURL":"","_EventCost":"","_EventCostDescription":"","_EventCurrencySymbol":"","_EventCurrencyCode":"","_EventCurrencyPosition":"","_EventDateTimeSeparator":"","_EventTimeRangeSeparator":"","_EventOrganizerID":[],"_EventVenueID":[],"_OrganizerEmail":"","_OrganizerPhone":"","_OrganizerWebsite":"","_VenueAddress":"","_VenueCity":"","_VenueCountry":"","_VenueProvince":"","_VenueState":"","_VenueZip":"","_VenuePhone":"","_VenueURL":"","_VenueStateProvince":"","_VenueLat":"","_VenueLng":"","_VenueShowMap":false,"_VenueShowMapLink":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1068","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-genel"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1068","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1068"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1068\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1072,"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1068\/revisions\/1072"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1068"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1068"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.banukalayci.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1068"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}